Things that I have lately been obsessed with out of nowhere.
The Ellen Degeneres Show: I laugh. I cry. I eat breakfast. I blow dry my hair. It's a good time.
Magazines: There is something really satisfying about flipping through a magazine and looking at chopped up fragments of lipstick and women with exactly the right method of smoky eyes. This is something I did a lot more in high school and stopped doing for a while...I guess when I started making my own money and tried to save more of it. At which, by the way, I have drastically failed. I will be able to do literally nothing this summer other than work.
Another weird new thing: I kind of miss high school. Not so much waking up early, but sort of the feeling that we were all suffering through the same crap together, the fact that I would definitely see a couple people I liked every day, the ability to not pay attention during class (I barely remember what that feels like, as I am interested in all my classes, so I pay attention in all of them, but my brain is constantly exhausted. Even by the art classes. Actually, mostly by the art classes.). I miss the time when it was normal not to have your license, that it was taken for granted that your parents would drive you around. I miss practicing putting on makeup from those makeup kits you got when you were like 12 for Christmas that had the most ridiculous colors in them. I miss knowing my friends were all at home, living at most 10 or 15 minutes away, rather than across states or oceans. It's not that I don't have friends here. It's just that I don't have access to the same variety of people, who all know me as something different. It feels like I'm stuck as the same person most of the time, because all my friends are from the same place.
Anyway. Just some recent thoughts.
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